A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval. —Mark Twain
It is hard for many of us to learn to admit the wrongs we do. We have followed lifestyles that led us away from recognizing our true feelings. Remnants of this blindness continue into our recovery. In this quiet time we can deepen and nourish a relationship with ourselves. Facing our disapproval and admitting it lead us to comfort and self-respect. Right now we can ask ourselves, "What messages do 1 receive from myself? What is my Higher Power telling me? Do I sense some gut feeling? Am I true to my relationships with loved ones? Have I been open to the feelings of my spouse. Of my friends? Of my boss? Do I owe anyone an apology which I can promptly make?"
Some of us indulge in worry, fear, and anger beyond a useful or meaningful point. What can we do about these excesses of feeling? First, we admit them to ourselves and to others. Then, we trust our Higher Power for the outcome, and they will fall away.
Today, I will nourish a relationship with myself by facing my own disapproval and growing toward greater comfort.
From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations for Men ©
Those of us who have found a Higher Power in our lives can feel truly blessed. We know we're on the right path by witnessing the wonderful changes that continue to come into our lives. One pitfall in this, however, is the risk of becoming "spiritually proud." We sometimes feel that our beliefs are so superior that others should accept them as well. We even become critical of the beliefs of others. If this happens, we actually will be severing our own conscious contact with our higher power. False pride is a new form will be back in charge. Others will sense this too, and may withdraw from us.
Almost any experienced AA will tell how his affairs have taken remarkable
and unexpected turns for the better
as he tried to improve his conscious contact with God.
He will also report that out of every season of grief or suffering,
when the hand of God seemed heavy or unjust,
new lessons for living were learned, new resources for courage were uncovered,
and that finally, inescapably, the conviction
that God does "move in a mysterious way His wonders to perform."
- Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, pp. 104-105
Thought to Ponder . . .
God enters us through our wounds.
AA-related 'Alconym' . . .
G I F T = God Is Forever There.